Life is starting to get hard(er)

Yeah well Mom wanted me to change my blog because of this whole gay thing between Ally and I. I seriously think she hates my guts still and will never want to be friends again, that just helps with the situation now doesn`t it? My teachers are now involved and I had to give up my blog. That seriously was my 2nd most hardest thing to do. I cried when I pushed the delete button, all my 5th grade and 6th grade life was on there, and how could I see it go away? It had all my dreams and I love dreams! They are the only things at night that will get me to fall asleep most of the time. Oh well, more dreams and more excitments as I enter the 7th grade. I was really pissed at Mom when she said I had to delete it but I sucked it up and said it wasn`t Moms fault and that she is only trying to help, she doesn`t know how much pride I have in my blog so it really wasn`t her fault. And Ally, I want you to stop looking at my blog, and come talk to ME. It hurts me that you think your going to get answers from my opinions and if that is going to happen I can delete the whole blog altogether. I have enough will power... I think. I`ve cried so many times and felt hurt so many times and I just want it to stop. Jenn has been talking to me on facebook and she says that years maybe in as little as months we could be laughing about this whole fight because it has happened to her before. I love Jenn because she gives so good advice and Ally, I know that if you said you hated Jenn I would be mad and I understand you. But that is what I was talking about. You need to come to me first and talk to me, don`t go into my blog, and get my opinions, freak out because I`m one in a million girls out there who doesn`t like Lindee. And you hate me because I have had bad experiences with Lindee, and she is just not like my sisters I am used to. You people don`t realize how easily I get insulted. Dessiree is going through the same thing that we are except that this fight is new to her and she is hating her. I want this fight to end. We don`t have to be best friends in the whole wide world at the very second we say sorry, I just want to work it back up to best friends. I`m tired of suffocating myself in my pillow trying to stop the sobbing.I`m scared for Eliasl, and that is causing about 67% of my cries. Aren understands me and I know that he will always, ALWAYS be my best friend as a guy. But I want you to be my best friend as a girl and I want to work back up there. So instead of glaring at each other, lets just walk past each other, give a little smile, and wave, and not hate each others guts. Well this is my first blog post and I can`t wait till I get to my 100th post again. It will be De Ja Veu or however you spell it. Bye guys.